I feel terrible sometimes. Few things keep bothering me. I have tried many things to live an easy life and not get bothered, but these things are again turning terrible today. These unholy, evil and queering forces act as a predator and keep pouncing back on me with greater vengeance. It hurts..

Anyways, it’s getting a bit too exposed. I don’t know when I read this again after few years, would it be possible for me to relate it again. Moving away from this obnoxious sense of mine; I wonder what’s up with India and Indian economy. Six months back, things were feting with markets going guongho. But look at them today, they are bleeding with no WBCs to pause the tempo off. With purchasing power parity going down, consumption is on declining scale. Government is trying hard but no use. It’s global and so is India. Let’s see what’s up in times to come..I think these ‘doings’ cannot be insulated against Ups and Downs of life…so is with me.

Walking down the lane is always easy. You just walk on and don’t look back. Your metabolism supports you, giving airs to your physical state of life. You are not worried wth what is left behind because you are sure where you want to be. Walking in present and residing the future just adds ‘chills’ to your overall life experience.

However, things are never easy for the one’s who have to travel the road, up the stream. Your metabolism, may or may not support you. Your psychosomatic state of mind may take you to an extempore state of life where you see nothing predictable and just have to act swiftly, so as to make the max. of the moment. In fact, it’s a defacto principle; none like to live in the past and none want to reveille their status quo. Getting up from slumber is what makes the most of it. And the rest follows.

People who need to change have to look back. It’s this comparison that is going to bring them a change for good. The process of ‘metamorphosis’ will only exemplify if one manages to dare look back. Life will go on but the road back shall always persist..if you don’t dare, then somebody else would…..

Sometimes when I have nothing else worthwhile to do or play too lazy in life to get back to the ‘essential’, I listen to music. I recently downloaded a song named Kyu Sakamoto’s Sukiyaki. It was one of the biggest hits in the early 1960s in Japan. It’s a beautiful composition with every word in Japanese… yeah, you guessed it right,  I don’t understand a single word but you know what, the music that runs through me while I play it each time is too exotic. It’s soft like petals of flower and rhythmic like rye whiskey. The only thing I know and I understand in literary about this song is that it’s a Japanese love song and was composed in one go. Whatsoever the case may be, any music, of any form at all times from anywhere in this world is welcomed at all times. Music not only makes you feel the ‘high life’, but also adds a charm to your erstwhile & the present. Of course, again, exceptions are there but that doesn’t change the heart & soal of any genre of music. It is indeed a bliss for mankind. What say you?

I think it takes a hell of time to negotiate between ‘destiny and karmas’. I would say that even a lifetime may not be good enough to establish the right kind of understanding about these concepts. We never know what supersedes the other and upto what extent??

Every now and then, some of us come across a situation wherein we take up our own lead, try and re-enforce the best out of the situation. At the same time, some of us may just agree to what life is bringing in and don’t make much effort to re-establish the right balance.

Since life cannot be forecasted and there is not much scope to know what’s going to happen next, the only thing that matters is ‘today’. I think ‘today’ is a part of our life that makes us realize the best in ourselves. I say this because when something comes to use, we are not sure of whether it is going to be right or not. But at the same time there is also an element which talks about hope, opportunity, and transition and may be a new revolution to evade the uncertainty quotient hanging with the future.

At the end of the day our future holds to our ‘Karmic Retribution’ and our very present. Not all things are in our hands but atleast present will always be there with us…..so let’s perform in the ‘later day of the law’….this is why we are here. Isn’t it?

 

Hi, It’s been more then a month now since I had last posted. Although every day is a learning day but since I am travelling less and meeting limited people; learning from others is going down. Otherwise, life is going cool. Sometime back, somebody told me to censor my negative thoughts on this blog as it may be used against me at some point in time in the same life span. I didn’t pay much head to it at that time but I think it very much makes sense today as my latest experience brought me the same story. But I am glad I learnt my lesson too early and not too late as was not the case with Arnold Schumacher… the guy got busted while running for California seat two (2) years back. And don’t forget Barack Obama- the punk in that Somali Gown http://www.nydailynews.com/news/politics/2008/02/25/2008-02-25_dust_up_over_somali_photo_has_barack_oba.html..he actually looks like a terror catalyst in that picture of his.

Anyways It’s okay, once again I have learnt my lesson so I am cool with it and will look forward to it with respect. During the last few days, I have been witnessing a bundle of new acts. I am trying to produce some remix tracks. I am using different softwares to make new tracks. I have produced few tracks which sound cool but I am not sure whether you people are going to like it or not. I might put them up on my personal website. Honestly I think they sound too rookie and actually…lol…not even one time kudos to it. Anyways will get back to you again….keep ticking guys!!:-)

Last few days had been a mix-bag of productivity & result. I have managed to complete few tasks which were pending for quite some time. Personally, things have been going on and off and sometimes, life is bringing up a challange which stands an effect but loses its steel in the due course of its completion.

Yesterday, I saw a french movie which showed life span of an individual who lived not for living but who lived, just to realize he is living…Things were tough all his life as he suffered not only because of his astute & high headed behavior but also his poor health. His genius was tested for life but his-self was never presented.

People, he was none other then Amedeo Clemente Modigliani

Hi….My visit on January 27, 2008 (Sunday) to the Todapur basti area (New Delhi) was a great experience. I had visited the place with a plan to conduct a drawing and singing competition within the Municipality school for children ageing 5-10Yrs and also to make these young lads realize the importance of education in their lives.

In the beginning, things were not easy. Children were reluctant to come together and participate in the competition. After some efforts, few of them got in and the rest followed. There were around 50 boys and girls who participated in the two competitions.

Lakshay works for promoting education..so the theme of competition also went with the same cause. It was cool to find 80% of children painted computers and flowers. This clearly shows a combination of ‘modernity blending with tradition’ in our next generation. There were some special cases wherein a child name Divya and few others’ came up with arts of Goddess Durga, Lion and Skycrapers.

Few prizes were also available with us to do the honors. After the completion of these activities, our group got together to make these children learn the importance of education and how they should move towards realising their dreams. We tried to identify what makes them move away from the school by bunking school, missing school, and even leave school.

All kinds of reasons came in which revolved around environment that they live in, parents orientation towards education, lack of facilities, money and many others…After listening to most of them, the point that really struck me was ‘money’ was not the foremost issue which walled them towards education. There parents were open to pay their fees.

I believe their problem lies in the availability of direction and guidance. A bit of motivation and provision of basic facilities will help them improve for sure…I know it is pre-mature to make a mindset on their actual problems but this is what my first experience was all about…never the less, I am already up for it and will be visiting again next weekend…so lets wait till then…thanks