Sometimes climate plays a folly on me. It becomes too difficult for me to maintain my real self. When I look outside this broken piece of wood, I see everything go so lull. This makes me feel so relinquished in life that everything seems meaningless. Actually everything around us is ‘meaningless’. In fact, this life is empty and meaningless. It is we as human beings who have created our own subjects, percepts and what not.

Guys, I don’t say this. It’s Balwinder Singh Sodhi at the Landmark Forum who relishes such kind of debonair, mind vetted statements. It’s difficult to comprehend what I went across during my sessions at the Landmark. However, few things did make allot of sense.

I personally relate to many things as I experience the same delinquency on various aspects in life. I feel dreaded sometimes for the decisions that I make both in personal and professional life. I feel insecure but then I persuade myself by telling myself that “we are our own leaders and we have to take responsibility of everything we do.”

I don’t know but this rain is making me feel so low today. Today, it’s been raining and for the last 3 days in particular, I have not been doing very well. I am a bit upset with something. I wanted that thing to happen as I had already expressed profoundly, still I couldn’t manage to put the point across. Consecutively, everything went bust. I feel sad for myself today. I want that thing to change desperately. And this rain makes me feel more sick, more helpless and even more in-despair. Help!!Lol.

Hi..

I am witnessing extremely high life condition today. May be I did Daimoku today and it is adding to my wit. I see life beautiful today with loads of opportunities at my disposal or may be right tools to create the right set of opportunities at least.

I don’t see circumstances as daunting as ever before and see a ray of light with the brightest robe cir mounted around it. I believe in the sanity of live and circumstantially introspect myself with the goods and bads at my disposal. Today, I feel great and I don’t think there is anything around that can dilute my inner gratitude. Never the less, alls well that ends well….I hope this life condition lasts or some times. It will just help me grow bigger and better.
Note: I don’t disclose my reasons for my fame and vanity…I just share my feelings on this blog…but this is subjective.

I feel terrible sometimes. Few things keep bothering me. I have tried many things to live an easy life and not get bothered, but these things are again turning terrible today. These unholy, evil and queering forces act as a predator and keep pouncing back on me with greater vengeance. It hurts..

Anyways, it’s getting a bit too exposed. I don’t know when I read this again after few years, would it be possible for me to relate it again. Moving away from this obnoxious sense of mine; I wonder what’s up with India and Indian economy. Six months back, things were feting with markets going guongho. But look at them today, they are bleeding with no WBCs to pause the tempo off. With purchasing power parity going down, consumption is on declining scale. Government is trying hard but no use. It’s global and so is India. Let’s see what’s up in times to come..I think these ‘doings’ cannot be insulated against Ups and Downs of life…so is with me.

Walking down the lane is always easy. You just walk on and don’t look back. Your metabolism supports you, giving airs to your physical state of life. You are not worried wth what is left behind because you are sure where you want to be. Walking in present and residing the future just adds ‘chills’ to your overall life experience.

However, things are never easy for the one’s who have to travel the road, up the stream. Your metabolism, may or may not support you. Your psychosomatic state of mind may take you to an extempore state of life where you see nothing predictable and just have to act swiftly, so as to make the max. of the moment. In fact, it’s a defacto principle; none like to live in the past and none want to reveille their status quo. Getting up from slumber is what makes the most of it. And the rest follows.

People who need to change have to look back. It’s this comparison that is going to bring them a change for good. The process of ‘metamorphosis’ will only exemplify if one manages to dare look back. Life will go on but the road back shall always persist..if you don’t dare, then somebody else would…..

Sometimes when I have nothing else worthwhile to do or play too lazy in life to get back to the ‘essential’, I listen to music. I recently downloaded a song named Kyu Sakamoto’s Sukiyaki. It was one of the biggest hits in the early 1960s in Japan. It’s a beautiful composition with every word in Japanese… yeah, you guessed it right,  I don’t understand a single word but you know what, the music that runs through me while I play it each time is too exotic. It’s soft like petals of flower and rhythmic like rye whiskey. The only thing I know and I understand in literary about this song is that it’s a Japanese love song and was composed in one go. Whatsoever the case may be, any music, of any form at all times from anywhere in this world is welcomed at all times. Music not only makes you feel the ‘high life’, but also adds a charm to your erstwhile & the present. Of course, again, exceptions are there but that doesn’t change the heart & soal of any genre of music. It is indeed a bliss for mankind. What say you?

I think it takes a hell of time to negotiate between ‘destiny and karmas’. I would say that even a lifetime may not be good enough to establish the right kind of understanding about these concepts. We never know what supersedes the other and upto what extent??

Every now and then, some of us come across a situation wherein we take up our own lead, try and re-enforce the best out of the situation. At the same time, some of us may just agree to what life is bringing in and don’t make much effort to re-establish the right balance.

Since life cannot be forecasted and there is not much scope to know what’s going to happen next, the only thing that matters is ‘today’. I think ‘today’ is a part of our life that makes us realize the best in ourselves. I say this because when something comes to use, we are not sure of whether it is going to be right or not. But at the same time there is also an element which talks about hope, opportunity, and transition and may be a new revolution to evade the uncertainty quotient hanging with the future.

At the end of the day our future holds to our ‘Karmic Retribution’ and our very present. Not all things are in our hands but atleast present will always be there with us…..so let’s perform in the ‘later day of the law’….this is why we are here. Isn’t it?

 

Hi, It’s been more then a month now since I had last posted. Although every day is a learning day but since I am travelling less and meeting limited people; learning from others is going down. Otherwise, life is going cool. Sometime back, somebody told me to censor my negative thoughts on this blog as it may be used against me at some point in time in the same life span. I didn’t pay much head to it at that time but I think it very much makes sense today as my latest experience brought me the same story. But I am glad I learnt my lesson too early and not too late as was not the case with Arnold Schumacher… the guy got busted while running for California seat two (2) years back. And don’t forget Barack Obama- the punk in that Somali Gown http://www.nydailynews.com/news/politics/2008/02/25/2008-02-25_dust_up_over_somali_photo_has_barack_oba.html..he actually looks like a terror catalyst in that picture of his.

Anyways It’s okay, once again I have learnt my lesson so I am cool with it and will look forward to it with respect. During the last few days, I have been witnessing a bundle of new acts. I am trying to produce some remix tracks. I am using different softwares to make new tracks. I have produced few tracks which sound cool but I am not sure whether you people are going to like it or not. I might put them up on my personal website. Honestly I think they sound too rookie and actually…lol…not even one time kudos to it. Anyways will get back to you again….keep ticking guys!!:-)